Sunday, January 30, 2011

Insecurities

You know the normal story
How he loves you and leaves?
Fights and lies mar the memory
Tears fall for a time so brief?
Then you wake up from the stupor
Heart barricaded, crocodiles fed
Then you wake up from the stupor
Resolute to not be in pain and sad
Then you wake up from the stupor
But the crocodiles have become meaner
You’ve fed them don’t you see,
The unnamed beasts have been fed!

You smile again, survive and dance away,
No mention of crocodiles by any breadth
Brave upfront yet afraid to let ‘em in,
The friends you haven’t met at arm’s length
You laugh and go through the routine…
Until…
One day the meticulous dams break
The fortress falls to ruins over time
Your armour rusts off piece by blasted piece
You let your guard slip, unknowingly perhaps?
And someone makes it in:
A friend you can trust
Someone who cares in too blatant a way
No deception, just plain sincerity
Honesty so painful that the beasts are silenced
And even you begin to think ‘em slain
Then something reminds you they’re there
Watching, waiting, hungry for a morsel…

And yet the friend stays
‘For some crocodiles,’ he says
‘You need to wield the knife yourself
I killed nine of ten
I left you one, just one tiny one
To help you grow, to help you decide
And through it all, I’ll be at your side’
‘So fuck the crocodile,’ I say
‘Let’s go catch that movie at nine’

Friday, January 07, 2011

Xmas

It's Christmas today here. I'm splat in Eastern Europe, in a country where the people are predominantly Orthodox Christians. For them Christmas is on Jan 7th :)

I was going through my bloglist and realised that stuff I read comes predominantly from Malaysia, Sri Lanka and India... There are the odd African and American blogs out there that I follow, but they're rare and few in number.. Just a random thought.

First snowfall during our first year