How many times do I do this?
My heart is in tatters,
My tears are mere whispers,
Looking for another reason to smile from within.
A smile from within seems out of reach,
I scrub, i clean, i cookand wash,
I’ve yet to find my inner smile,
Though many a time i’ve gone the extra mile.
Love is a fairytale,
A lore of old that i’ve outgrown,
Blindfolded we try to pin on the donkey’s tail,
some get it right, others don’t
i don’t wish to play this game anymore.
I’m looking for a way out,
A way to find myself again,
innocence lost, happiness submerged,
I want to earth them all out again!
I’m pushing, i’m fighting,
And as i do my arms grow weary,
The waves and current guide me,
Carry me in gentle waves to the shore.
Now my chest is heaving,
My breath rumbles within,
I am gasping for golden air.
A gentle breeze touches my cheek,
The smell of grass and lavender ease my pain,
The call of a friend lifts the shroud,
I am home at last.
The innocence remains lost,
The submerged happiness a lesson learnt,
In their place is wisdom, love and God,
In their place is me, changed somewhat,
In their place is me, with the same bruised heart,
But I am whole, and i am home,
Thank you, dear God