Sunday, May 30, 2010

Awake at 3am When I Don't Want To Be


I’d seen you around, heard talk of you before. Somewhere along the way we began exchanging smiles of acknowledgement. I began noticing your face whenever we were in the same room and started wondering if you were doing the same. Never thought you were much to look at before, but I stand corrected. I never really thought about it at all. Now I have to admit that I seem to find you pleasing to the eye, and when you speak it makes me smile. And it leaves me wondering…

I heard you on the drums and stories of your ineffable humour somehow always reach my ears. I never go looking for these snippets. Honest. I don’t know much else about you except that you seem like a pretty interesting person, a person I would have enjoyed getting to know only if circumstances had been different.

But the way things stand, you’ll go your way, and I’ll go mine, sharing nothing more than a minute’s polite conversation for a little while longer.

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Tried writing on the scenario above but I kept getting stuck because it hasn’t played out in real life yet and me being me, I need real life inspiration to spin a story. *sigh*

Perhaps in a couple of months when this is in the perfect past I’ll be able to word it out, when I know for sure the outcome and the people involved are no longer sharing my elevator every morning and evening.

Or maybe the words aren’t coming out right because I’m pushing my neurons to work at 3 am on a weekend when I’ve been relaxing for a good whole day prior to this doing pretty much nothing.

My alarm clock will ring in about 5 hours and I’ll begin my Sunday and I’m sincerely hoping that it’ll be a productive day because being a bum can get depressing. I think that’s why psychiatrists keep ‘suggesting’ that depressed individuals get a hobby… I totally get it now. I’m depressed enough to kill a cockroach. Usually I run away screaming because I hate their hairy legs and weird smell. Ok, am totally rambling now but sleep hasn’t set in yet!

On a different note, my roommate made buttercake and it’s a perfect pre-dawn snack for an insomniac like myself. I say pre-dawn because the sun rises at 4.30 nowadays. I might see the sunrise before I fall off into elusive slumber. Insomnia has its upsides I guess :)

My mum just called. It’s 7.30 back home and she had just finished sending my brother off to work. Dad’s still asleep. Sister and the cavalry are there for a few days. Sis-in-law and niece are still snuggled in bed. That’s where I’ll be in 31 days exactly and it’s just a matter of counting down the days now…

Though once I get home there’ll be a two month silence on my blog I suspect because when I am home my clock seems to have lesser than 24 hours a day :)

Right. This has got to be the most pointless post that I’ve ever written, but at least it’s giving me something to do. It was between pecking this out on my keypad and studying intusseption (a nenonate disease) and obviously intusseption won - not!

I hope you guys have a great day and don’t ever get cursed with insomnia. It’s a cruel thing indeed! Bubbye for now… And so ends my current case of the 'Insomniac Rambles' ;)

8 comments:

Chavie said...

Wow, 4 am sunrises sound divine! :)

Random post or not, I enjoyed every word of it. Sad to know that we won't get to hear from you for 2 months, but hey, you'll be enjoying yourself nuh?! :D

And about this drummer guy, one month is perfectly enough to start a friendship (or something more) that'll last a lifetime... I suggest that you think about it, or even better, just do it! Even if you make a complete fool out of yourself, you won't be sharing the elevator with these people pretty soon and you've got nothing to lose, nuh? :)

rainfield61 said...

I do not know back in Malaysia we have less than 24 hours a day.

No wonder I have to run and catch up all the things being lined up.

Me-shak said...

But I find your stories very interesting. I love them, especially the previous one :D You wont be here for two months?, tsk what to do? but do post pictures when you return ok?
Looking forward for more of these great stories :D

Cheers!

Loshini said...

Chavie:
It is. We usually don't get sunrise or sunset 6 mths out of 12... just a fading of light or brightening of day, that sorta thing! I guess tht's why I enjoy warmer weather so much

Those 2 months are what keeps me upbeat, so loads of fun!!!! :D and thank you for appreciating the randomness

I'll pass the message about the drummer guy,I mean how many love stories can all be about me, eh? :P

Nobody listens to me when I say there's nothing to lose! Haih....

Rainfield:
Lol! Good one. I like it that way though, with lesser than 24 hours, don't you? ;)

Me-shak:
Wow. Thank you :)I'm not going away yet! Another month to go of endless classes and exams. I'll be MIA in July-Aug only ;)

I'll still be blogging in the meantime and taking up space in the blogosphere :D

Anonymous said...

Real drummer or is that a metaphor? And are we talking about the people you talked about to me on Friday?

Dont wanna go back to work tomorrow!!!!!

Luv,
Vi

Kirigalpoththa said...

I am not an early riser. I wake up at that time only if I camp out :)

Chavie said...

Oh, riiiiight! :D Sorry about assuming it as such... ;) But yes, tell her that life's short, you might never meet the guy again, and it's better to forge a life-long relationship than end up regretting not doing it for the rest of your life! :D

Cheers Losh!

Loshini said...

Vi:
Yep, same people and it was 3 in the morning. My brain wouldn't come up with a metaphor if you force fed it glucose :P

so yeah, real drummer... i wish she'd move her bum and do it!

K:
I generally like to lie in as well. But look at the gorgeous pictures and experiences you get when you do wake up early!

And i'm guessing your waking time might get a bit more messed up now with little K:D

Chavie:
Hehe.. no problemo, worry about it not :) I agree with you on that part, but at the end of the day the decision's hers to make :D