illusions vs disillusionment

I found this on the web some place. but life without illusions durnt mean much do it? ;) without illusions we wouldnt dare dream, and there'd be less hope and drive to move forward... but on the other hand,  the shattering of illusions is a very real painful process

Awake at 3am When I Don't Want To Be

I’d seen you around, heard talk of you before. Somewhere along the way we began exchanging smiles of acknowledgement. I began noticing your face whenever we were in the same room and started wondering if you were doing the same. Never thought you were much to look at before, but I stand corrected. I never really thought about it at all. Now I have to admit that I seem to find you pleasing to the eye, and when you speak it makes me smile. And it leaves me wondering…

I heard you on the drums and stories of your ineffable humour somehow always reach my ears. I never go looking for these snippets. Honest. I don’t know much else about you except that you seem like a pretty interesting person, a person I would have enjoyed getting to know only if circumstances had been different.

But the way things stand, you’ll go your way, and I’ll go mine, sharing nothing more than a minute’s polite conversation for a little while longer.

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Tried writing on the scenario above but I kept getting stuck because it hasn’t played out in real life yet and me being me, I need real life inspiration to spin a story. *sigh*

Perhaps in a couple of months when this is in the perfect past I’ll be able to word it out, when I know for sure the outcome and the people involved are no longer sharing my elevator every morning and evening.

Or maybe the words aren’t coming out right because I’m pushing my neurons to work at 3 am on a weekend when I’ve been relaxing for a good whole day prior to this doing pretty much nothing.

My alarm clock will ring in about 5 hours and I’ll begin my Sunday and I’m sincerely hoping that it’ll be a productive day because being a bum can get depressing. I think that’s why psychiatrists keep ‘suggesting’ that depressed individuals get a hobby… I totally get it now. I’m depressed enough to kill a cockroach. Usually I run away screaming because I hate their hairy legs and weird smell. Ok, am totally rambling now but sleep hasn’t set in yet!

On a different note, my roommate made buttercake and it’s a perfect pre-dawn snack for an insomniac like myself. I say pre-dawn because the sun rises at 4.30 nowadays. I might see the sunrise before I fall off into elusive slumber. Insomnia has its upsides I guess :)

My mum just called. It’s 7.30 back home and she had just finished sending my brother off to work. Dad’s still asleep. Sister and the cavalry are there for a few days. Sis-in-law and niece are still snuggled in bed. That’s where I’ll be in 31 days exactly and it’s just a matter of counting down the days now…

Though once I get home there’ll be a two month silence on my blog I suspect because when I am home my clock seems to have lesser than 24 hours a day :)

Right. This has got to be the most pointless post that I’ve ever written, but at least it’s giving me something to do. It was between pecking this out on my keypad and studying intusseption (a nenonate disease) and obviously intusseption won - not!

I hope you guys have a great day and don’t ever get cursed with insomnia. It’s a cruel thing indeed! Bubbye for now… And so ends my current case of the 'Insomniac Rambles' ;)

Saki Beach

It's Friday afternoon here and we just survived another major exam. The next 2 days are gonna be so hectic with tournaments and so many other things lined up I thought I'd post some pictures from our beach-BBQ-outing while I can. So, here goes...

We got there early and the water hadn't warmed up yet. Being the level headed adults that we are, we did this:

We ran screaming into the water and splashed around like a herd of hippos during the dry season, and had about as much fun :)

Then, our hunger set in and we got down to serious business. We ate. We barbequed. We sat and stared at the beautiful water, and marvelled at the sunlight glinting off its surface.We talked. And we ate some more. 

                           

Then we played touch rugby and volleyball till we got a bit bored and decided it was time for some torture. We caught a couple of our friends and buried them in the sand. The sand was warm on the surface and cool as we dug deeper. I particularly like this picture below: the hot afternoon sun cast our faces in shadows, brought out the deeper green of the sea and made the sky a heavenly blue - but I should just let you judge for yourself :) That's K in the sand by the way..

                             

We had to leave just before sunset, and though we didn't get a picture of the setting sun, we did manage to get this. The two boys in the picture add some character to it, I think.

                          

But I've always loved the sky meeting the sea and the sea meeting the shoreline ever since I was little.We are hoping to visit more places these next 6 weeks and maybe there'll be more amazing memories I can collect. We'll see...

Victory Day Weekend

We had a long awaited 3-day weekend. It happened to coincide with Mothers' Day :)... seeing as how the weather was becoming warmer, we hired a marshutka  and went down to Saki Beach, about 30 minutes away from Evpatoria which I mentioned here and here.

We had good food : satay, chicken, kuah kacang, sandwiches, drinks to quench our thirst... The beach was very near the railway tracks but I suspect it may be abandoned because in our 6 hours there we neither saw nor heard a single train, but the spot made for a memorable picture for us girls :) I'll leave us all unnamed for the sake of anonymity, yeah?

The water was too cold to swim in intially but we did that running away from the waves thing that we urbanites are so fond of. The water was beautiful, the little pebbles underfoot were pokey and prickly...
I've never seen such GREEN waters in person before. All other seasides I've been to have been blue. I like the greenness though... :D

A beach wouldn't be a beach without flip-flops and grainy sand. 

We had it all - the food, the beach, the sand, salty water and good company. Will definitely post more pictures soon, Saki Beach deserves more than one blogpost!!

Blub-blub and Blabber Sunday Updates

Creative title, no? ;) The post I'm about to peck out on this keyboard has nothing to do with the first day of the week however... wait, 7th day of the week??

I'm sitting here, two floors below my own room, drinking 3in1 cereal at 1 pm, missing you guys. Why?

1. Our thread on FB is dying a slow death, with some feeble attempts at being resuscitated by us various 8, but the truth is work has caught up with us and we're letting it slide. I want my girls back!
2. I heard S coo for the first time today and the happiness in Ammi's voice was very touching
3. I had dinner last night with N and G and I found myself wondering how dinner at home would have been. It's been so long that I've eaten mangoes after dinner or made teh-O-kosong for a family member. Weird the things one can miss
4. Gargled with salt water this morning all on my own without being nagged about it in my attempt to get rid of this annoying burning at the back of my throat
5. My bed at home would probably give me more than 4 hours of sleep in a stretch
6. Pi has yet to upload pictures of her trip and that's bugging me like hell
7. The boys bought dogs, a white German Shepherd and a British Cocker Spaniel!

So I was gonna make the most of my Sunday, lie in a bit and be a bum. Then life happened, and here I am halfway through my day, with 3 in1 cereal in a mug, courtesy of T, pecking away at a keyboard on a break from my reading and notes compiling. Gotta cook in a while, will probably do that before I hit the books again. The joys of student life, I tell ya! :P